changed.

Hold on, God knows it all.

2011-11-24T09:12:00.000-08:00

I just had my cg bible study today, i didn't really learn anything from it. I guess i have had a hardened heart that doesn't absorb anything else. I was upset because someone told me something earlier during dinner time that totally spoilt my mood for bible study. I know i can't blame them or what, i know its myself who's being emotional at times. Uhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

Dear big daddy above, you know everything that i am going through in life and i really desire to have a closer relationship with you. I want to stop talking so much and start doing something with my life. Draw me close to You, Lord. I want to change my heart, like seriously. I know i have said it many times but still in the end, i failed. :( but i don't want to give up, i want to keep trying until God you change me personally, shape me and mould me. I dont want to give up.

Make my heart your home big daddy. :)

There's so many things to do, sometimes i really wished there was a pause button, to pause everything. I wanna take a break and enjoy! persevere eunice! & focus on God! :D

& Feel like going for a movie with you. :)
& i am happy when i am with you.

God is awesome & great! Praise Him! :)

2011-11-12T21:03:00.001-08:00

I just watched karen's testimony on how God healed her and brought her through the stage of cancer. The video is in mandarin but hope it will encourage everyone of us after watching it. I really had been blessed and encouraged after watching the vid! Anyway God is really all knowing, all seeing, all awesome! He really is zuper awesome and i am glad that i have great big God!

I am also facing some difficulties lately, lots of things going on in my mind, lots of worries and lots of stuffs to do. but i still thank God that i have a joyful heart and i want to use this semester to experience God in a different way. Dear God, i ask that you purify my heart and cleansed me deep within and forgive me for all the wrong doings that i have done, and use me as your vessel in the things that you want me to do and go. Continue to lead me on day by day. :)

Enjoy the video! :)

And this song is about just believing in God. Yeah i want to believe in You, Lord, stretch my faith in You. :)

Letters.

2011-11-10T01:27:00.000-08:00

It was an awesome weekend for me to go back to my hometown. I visited my grandpa who wasn't feeling that good after falling down twice in the bathroom. Thank God he is getting much better now, walking really slowly. He was very different the last time i saw him, i think it was months back then. It had been a while since i visited him, due to my busy uni life. Alright going straight to the point first.

Ahah! I prayed for grandpa for healing of his leg and for good health for him and the shocking thing was he agreed while i was praying. This was the first time when we prayed together and he uttered "mmm" by agreeing to what we prayed for him. I was like WOW-ing!!!!!!!! in my heart. Haha i am really glad and happy to hear that and i believe that he is slowing opening up his heart to Jesus Christ.

For the past few months i have been writing letters to him and i inserted some elements from the bible to share it with him, and i hope that God is speaking to him through those letters i wrote. I will continue writing to him and oneday i believe that he will come to know the Lord and accept Jesus Christ as his personal lord and saviour! HALLELUJAH! PRAISE HIM!! :)

I really can't wait for this day to come for grandpa to know my awesome big daddy above!!

I love you grandpa!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm blessed to know you &

I want to appreciate you more :)

Season of change.

2011-11-04T19:02:00.003-07:00

Alright i am back here once again! but this time this blog shall not be just about my life, my feelings and stuffs but i want to use this blog to be a blessing and encouragement to those who read this. Uhmm i thank God for walking hand in hand with me through the past few months, it was really an awesome experience with Him bringing me through all those tough exams! Praise Him! It had been tough and the journey wasn't easy but yeah I am weak but God is strong! :D

There's a verse that i wanna share it with you guys here, i got it when i did my devotions.

1 Corinthians 16:13-14

Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong. Do everything in love.

Oh yeah and another thing, i read this book and today's topic was on hearts of heart.

The verse given was Psalms 37:4,
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."

We'd dated for a year; I loved him like no other. Then as unexpectedly as we met, he broke off our relationship, which completely broke me. Sobbing for hours, i heard myself saying, "God, if you are everything people say, if you are able to help me, then i need you more than ever. I need to be saved from my own mess of a life."

In my brokenness i felt God's presence and suddenly understood what this was all about. It was as if He said, Pamela you only understand a part. I brought David into your life and took him out of your life to confirm to you that it is not an earthly relationship you deeply long for -- you long for Me. You met Me once a long time ago. Do you remember? You were very little. You learned about Me when you attended church with your neighbours. I promised that i would never leave or forsake you. I know you remember. You gave yourself to Me then. But through the years Myheart had been repeatedly rent because you've sought the love you need in many other ways --career, position, material possessions and relationships. Yet, i have kept my promise.

Though you have never acknowledged Me in your inmost heart, you only see Me as saviour for your eternal future, I am the God of yesterday, today and tomorrow. Now Pamela, i wait no longer. Today, i have removed from you that which you perceive to be what you deeply long for so that you can finally and abruptly see the truth about Whom and what you really need.

"Heavenly father, forgive me," i prayed. "You are the one whom i've needed all these years! I give you my whole heart and my whole life." And with God established as my first love, He later brought David back into my life and we were married. =)

This testimony, reminded me to put God first and foremost in my life. Ahah, i am back in my hometown and i reaaally wished i could stay back even longer here. I miss this place, i miss all of them here, i miss everything here!!!

Ciao, nights people! God bless you! :D

Surrender planetshakers.

2011-09-07T10:31:00.001-07:00

A big-bend in the road.

2011-09-07T10:07:00.000-07:00

Today i woke up early and did my devotions and sent some emails, replied some too. After that i went to meet my AA and did some reading in the library. Gotta start working hard for finals. Don't play play. Something not so nice happened today, i was walking and texting at the same time, i didnt see the drain ahead and i fell into it. It was really painful. i've got a few bruises and some cuts on my arm and elbow. :'(

Hmm i thank God for His unfailing love for me, i thank Him for being there for me. I jsut need to trust Him and let go of control. Man always fail us but god doesn't. The past few days i had been really down, didnt really tell anyone except God. I want to be alright and i will. Continue to rely on Him, euniceteo and you will be fine! Anyway, i thank God for today, also for my wonderful sister in Christ who spent time to listen to me, talked to me and prayed for me.

Today's ROC2 launching was awesome and i hope that it is pleasing to God, which is the most important thing! Haha you're there playing game, have fun larh and i am sleeping soon. nights! :D Ahh i am really thirsty, wanna go get some water! ciao.slow

P/s: to wait upon the Lord.

P/s: i am sorry for being weird at times. thankyou for always being so caring about me.

slow.wait.patience.joy.

I have a BIG God up above! i love Him :D

2011-09-02T09:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i was feeling blah. (Guess you know what i am trying to express here.)

& I want to talk about my day today. Okay let me start from.....errmm.

Yeah this, i slept pretty late yesterday and this morning when dad came into my bedroom, i jumped out of bed he wanted to bring me to renew my driving licence. So yeah i went with him and otw i dropped by my highschool to collect my spm cert. Haha mom had been nagging for two years asking me to collect it before they send it back to Jabatan Pelajaran. After that dad met up with him friend and they started talking, you know when they start talking they won't stop. haha but it was fun yumcha-ing with them. =)

Then, we rushed home, picked Didi and Adriel up and when to meet my aunt and mom for lunch. We had Japanese buffet today. We ate so much until the person regretted giving us 10% discount. haha. It was so funny and yeah i realised that i am reaching my target. I am getting fat! Hey people, congrats me please. I know i am weird, but haha this is my goal for this hols, to get fat! :P

After eating for around 2hours, we went back home. I started playing my piano which i haven been touching it for months and i seriously miss it! ahah finally i played it! Aunt said she likes listening to me play and it makes her wanna learn piano too. But fyi, i am not a pro btw. Hmm after that they went to Jusco again, its my 3rd trip going to Jusco since i came back. haha. And guess what, i made a pair of new spectacles! Its just a normal and simple one, but i wanna thank dad and mom for allowing me to get a new one.

Yepps enough crapping, let's get to the main point of this post. After that i came back home i had my quiet time with God. It was really awesome, he spoke to me in a wonderful way. He reminded me on some stuffs that i need to improve myself on and yeah somehow reminded me that there are some areas i need to change and learn. The devotion material was talking that God knows every man, deep down in everyone's heart, he knows it all what is in us. because He created us. And yeah, even He knows all our weaknesses and bad points but He still loves us the way we are. Tears flowed down my cheeks, when i read John2:25, its just a short verse but it touched me deeply.

Yesterday i was feeling dry and empty i guess and i was following my mood. I want to say sorry to someone i think i've hurt. To you, I am sorry and yeah thank you for the two verses you gave me. It spoke to me strongly. Thanks for praying for me. :]

Anyway, i watched a sermon titled 'indescribable'. And it was really really awesome, don't ask me what and how just ask from me if you wanna know what about the video. Because its indescribable, i can't tell you in my own words, you've got to watch it personally. So yeah, anyone interested just let me know! haha.

Alright i guess its the longest post since soooooo long! So yeah i am going to bed and tmrw will be another awesome day and great life to experience God's goodness, God's kindness, His grace and mercy in our lives! Stay tune! =D

P/s: me heart hearts youuu! :]

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Home sweet home.

2011-08-27T03:58:00.000-07:00

I just got back home today, and i am feeling real great! I fully understand the meaning of home sweet home, its really fun to be around with your love ones. Its been so long since we hung out together at home. Anyway hope this hols would be another awesome and fruitful one for me! I'm going out with mum and sissy to shop later!!! Alright, i wanna go watch my korean drama dy, ciao!

P/s: ninedays. i gonna miss you too. =)

Waited.

2011-08-22T10:35:00.000-07:00

I thank God that my presentation is over and yeah i am left with my last assignment for this semester. Hmm i was waiting for someone to drop by to take his bread but he didn't turn up. Heh anyway think i am going to continue with my assignments cause i don't think i can sleep now. :)

P/s: Actually quite geram, hahaha. but its okay lar, its just a small little thing. :P

Keep it up, be strong in Him!!

YOU ARE GOOD!

2011-08-21T21:34:00.000-07:00

I am feeling so sleepy right now. Hmmm. Anyway, i was listening to this song and i like it a lot, the lyrics really encouraged me not to fall into 'emo' mood. haha maybe i'm just tired. So yeah this is the song, enjoy!

Having presentation later at 2! Wooohh, Alll eesh veiilll ! God bless us! =)

P/s: You are Good, no matter what! :D

OBEDIENCE TO GOD!

2011-08-21T03:03:00.000-07:00

O B E D I E N C E

Someone shared this with me before about the word 'obedience', see the DIE in the middle of the word? It means obedience is to die to yourself, not literally die but dying to your own ways and plans and learning to surrender it to god and to obey Him. It is also for us to learn to pick up your cross daily and follow Him. FOLLOW JESUS.

Lately, God has been reminding me about obedience to Him and i know that there's a thing in my life that i need to give up and change on, that i need to learn to obey Him, wait upon Him and follow Him. He will guide me and i want to believe in His promises in this verse:

Psalms 37:4

Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.

God lead us, help us to wait upon you. ihgnhvvm (:

it's really great seeing you happy.

Beautiful Saviour.

2011-08-18T22:53:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to Praise Him all my life, because He is worthy! Another great day awaiting for me to experience Him in a totally new and different way. Lord, i want to know more about You today, continue to work in my life! People, rejoiceeee!

Psalms 16:8-9

I keep my eyes always on the LORD.

With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.

Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;

my body also will rest secure.

P/s: You make me wanna be brave. (:

God is awesome.

2011-06-25T09:25:00.000-07:00

Praise Him.

I had worship practice today, it was really good and hope that the worship tmrw would be able to lead the congregation into an awesome time of sing and praising the Lord; and may it be pleasing to big daddy above! :D Tmrw gotta be another awesome day and yeah i gotta ciao to study "psychiatric illness" HAHAHA, nights! :D

Dear you, hope you are growing in Christ! Let us learn to care, support, encourage and love each other like how God loves us. Smileeeeee more please, serious face! :P

free-falling.

Everlasting to everlasting.

2011-06-22T10:07:00.000-07:00

Thank you big daddy for everything lately, for all the good and the bad. I believe that the ups and downs will help me to grow stronger in You. There are not much sunshine and rainbows in my life lately, but i believe that tmrw will be another better day. Greater things will come and there will be lots of smiles on everyone's face. Thank you Lord, for Your mercies and grace are new every morning! :D

Anyway, i went to the library to study today. I couldn't stand the heat anymore at home, so i ran to the library because there's AIR-CON. =) Hmm, i think this semester i want to spend more time on my studies and pull up my grades. I want to it to be a testimony for Him. To God be the glory. :D

Dear you, thank you for temaning me and for what you've done. I am sorry, i admit that i am very timid. There are a lot of things i am very scared of. idk also. i jsut feel that i am sorry. ='(

confused, my mind is not functioning.

Give thanks.

2011-06-14T11:16:00.000-07:00

Hope you're feeling better, after talking. (:

Today's cf was pretty cool, i like the sharing. I always enjoy when brother Fookmeng comes to share. And the vision and mission of cf this academic year is to become ambassador of Christ in our campus! :D Hmm got to know quite a number of new freshies, and it was pretty fun.

Blessed birthday to my dear son, Edwin Hoh and Mr meow, Edmund cheong! Continue to shine for the Lord and do smile always! God bless youu! Hope y' all had fun! Alrightoo nights. :D

P/s: A closer walk with God k.

You Are Not Alone. =)

Heyy, anything i will be here for you to help you. Don't stress kay. serious, i know you wont see this but still yeah. i will be there.

To look deep within the heart.

2011-06-13T09:27:00.001-07:00

Its been quite some time since i blog cause i've been focusing more on my journal writing. Writing its pretty cool, much better than typing, i think? Hmm i don't know why i just feel like coming here to just write down what i feel inside. Hmm how's my life, umm i would say that of course there would be ups and downs but life is still good because i have Jesus walking alongside with me. I know i am not alone. YANA. hee.

I thank God for giving me the courage to tell a friend about something that was stuck on my mind for quite some time. I was scared about the after effect. I really didn't know what will happen after i told him but amazingly God spoke to both of us in very different ways. He helped us through, and i am really thankful and glad that you said you wanted to honour that and you respect God. That really gained my respect towards you. I know its not easy for you to say that, and yeah i believe that the most important thing right now in our lives is our walk with God. That's the key to everything, remember it alright? (:

God has been really really good to me, and I believe this semester would be a very different one for me to experience Him once again. I want to rely on God & trust in Him in everything i do, i want to let go of control. If i hold on to things, by myself, i might fail, i want to let God. I believe everything is in His control and plan. Ecclesiates 3:1, everything will fall rightly in place. And i also need to focus on the ministry i am doing right now in Campus thru a team of prayer warriors (Campus Revo) and also on my studies to glorify God's name. Hmm i will work hard for God, my parents, my love ones and someone. Someone told me that it won't be easy, and i really really cannot give up halfway. I gotta run till the end of the marathon, with passion, with fire for Him.

Dear big daddy above, i know you're looking down from above and listening to all our prayers. Please do grant me the strength i need. i had been very down the past few weeks and i fell many times but i thank God that you're always there for me and you pick me up again and again. Thank you and i love you lord.

To miss 'ehmee' stay strong no matter what happens alright, i will keep you in prayer. And i think i am going to do some reading before i sleep. I will try not to sleep too late, tmrw still got class and will be leading worship, so yeahh gonna live everyday to the fullest! Praise Him, nights, ciao :D

P/s: learning patience too. :P

I don't want to rush things. I am really glad you respect my pledge to God. I hope we can get to know each other in christ more and we would both grow spiritually in Him first thru this journey. Waiting is not easy but true love waits. i am sorry if i've hurt you in any way.

Trust & Rely on Him.

remember the two things alright? :)

Bubbles,

2011-06-07T11:20:00.000-07:00

I've shifted into my new house yesterday and have little tommy staying with four of us. My room is currently still in a mess, but i will clear everything up when i get the containers tmrw! haha, Anyway, i'm loving this house and the people inside. This new sem gonna be a hectic one, i cannot slack anymore, i gotta give my best and study real hard. Hmmm. Lord, please give me the strength!!!!!!! i really need it. I'll give myself one more year and then i'll rethink stuffs.. err.

Went for cf, and we played captain ball today! We had fun and enjoyed and the best thing was i met most of the alphas and also SUEYEE! HAHAHHA. i really cant imagine that she's now here with me in MMU. but she's still considering which campus she's going within this 3 months. Hope you'll stay with me. haha! :P

Anyway, i think that's all for today and i'm feeling real hot in here!!!! Ahhhhhhh, i need air-con. teeheeee! :D alrighto good night peeps! Bubbles bubblesss bubblesssss babe.

looking at the heart.

i cannot give up just like that. :]

HELLO JUNE!

2011-05-31T20:08:00.000-07:00

I just got back from the FES camp in Cameron Highlands yesterday and you know what i got a welcome gift which was some weird stomachache that lasted till one hour ago. I took Eno and i'm feeling much much better right now, so yeah i can blog! Weeee~

My spirit was renewed and refreshed during the 5 days of camp and i got to know many new friends too! I seriously didn't regret going for the camp, although at first i did because too many things happened. The camp was fun with lots for us to absorb and digest, the staffs there and friends there are really fun too! I wanna thank them for organising this camp and Mark for asking me to join. Hmm, there was alot of quiet time for us to learn to listen to God and to spend time with Him. i learnt alot in this camp, and i've got a lot to change and improve myself to impact the lives of others. There are a lot of people out there who needs Jesus, and we gotta share it out, i don't want to keep this gift to myself. I really experienced a lot there, i can't use words to express it out. I can only say that it is just amazing. Btw, thank you Jesus, You're my everything and the only reason i live. :]

There was a talk about discovering ourselves, nowadays people are living with masks on and not really being themselves. for example: The rock and diamond story-a rock who wants to be a diamond. Maybe God made you a rock, big, heavy and ugly don't try to change and be a diamond. Rocks too are special in their very own way, so be yourself and He has a purpose making you, YOU. This impacted me the most! Yeahh, Euniceteo be yourself! :D

MADCOW- Make A Difference, Change Our World.

I know i will not walk this journey alone, God is with me! He walks with me, YANA! :]

My Bestfriend: Jesus Christ. :]

I'm currently in Ipoh, resting for 3 days before going for another family camp in kuantan. Yesterday we went to watch KUNGFU PANDA 2, it was quite nice. Po really very cute and someone said i'm like the tigress,hehe. lol! :) My sem break is short & fruitful. Although it is packed with lots of stuffs to do and i would be tired but i really enjoy it! :D I hope it would be fun, snorkelling! & whatever i had learnt from the camp i want to bring it back and apply it in my life. Hmm to another friend across the sea, irmy. Heyy, remember drink lots of water k :]

P/s: I will be myself, be yourself too k. to someone who calls me kayu, getting to know each other more, i hope you received the letter i sent! hope things between us will be good according in His plan, slowly but surely! :D

You give me butterflies.

2011-05-24T07:02:00.000-07:00

Aaaaaaaa. I'm having bad toothache!!!!!!! *rolls on floor* (you can imagine how painful it was.)

Sigh, didnt make it to the dentist, there were too many patients today. So postponed the extracting wisdom tooth session to tmrw, i'm so scared though. It would be really painful, because the dentist is going to inject some stuffs into my gums!! ahhh!

I went go my haircut today and kena cheated by the aunty. She always charge us very expensive, hmm. I kinda regretted going to the hairdresser today. I kept saying that i regretted over and over again, almost a million times until mummy wanted to scold me. HAHAHA. Opps.

Dad called today and i chatted with him over the phone for a while, i'm glad we talked. I asked him why he always disturb mummy, then he said if he don't disturb then it would be very boring. I told him mum was pretty angry because she got a lot of stuffs to do and yet dad kept disturbing her. Then dad laughed and said if he realised mum's angry, then he buat bodoh and keep quiet. So awesome larhhh you daddy! :D

Two more days and i will be going to kl then to cameron highlands for Fes camp, i am pretty excited but at the same time i'm quite scared too because i'm going alone. Err not really alone, thank god Aaron is also going this time. I have got two camps this hols! I bet it would be really awesome, hahahha can't wait for it!!!!

Sissy is coming home tmrw, and i won't be sleeping alone tmrw night! yay. ahaha. I hope i can meet Sueyee tmrw. Alrighty, mommy wanna use her lappie to watch her drama. So ciaoo, nights peeps! Ohhh yeah, to you, not the normal you but that you. (you owe me a song, rmb? haha :P)

P/s: I washed my shoes and slippers!=)

You saw a rainbow today,

when will it be my turn?? ey, sure got place one, go kay! :)

(if you see this)

1 text message received. :P

2011-05-21T08:26:00.000-07:00

I just got back to jb and i wanna thank Andy and Jason for temaning me to wait for my bus. It was freaking cold in the bus and it was really dark. I went into dwelling mood because the songs that were playing on my phone were mostly sad songs and i fell asleep for while. haha. Anyway, am glad to be home.

Daddy and mummy were very cute! Daddy kept kacauing mummy on purpose, until mummy said she wanna disappear today because maybe daddy ate the wrong thing today and kept talking nonsense and kept kacauing mum. I was there, and i couldn't stand them. The things they argued on were like zuperrrrrr LAME! i tell you i can faint, daddy kept irritate mummy w those little stuffs. :P

Dad: I worked so hard, come back on weekends just to see you and you will wanna nag at me..

Mum: I cooked chicken soup for you still complain. *laughs*

Dad: You whack me then only cooked the soup, after that....

Blah blah blah, etc. (lots more crazy stuffs)

My parents are cute and crazy larh, i really cannot tahan them, like seriously. XP

Ohh yeah, i got stung by a bee when i got home. I stepped on it. It was really painful, ouch!!!!!! I pulled out the bee's sharp needle-like butt, and mum got me some baking powder to apply on it. It swell for a while, thank God that the bee wasn't that big. This is the second time i kena sting by bee. "Once bitten, twice shy" lol. Now, swell gone, pain gone, feet size gone back to normal. haha.

Had a nice chat with a so-called stranger friend, and glad to know that he is happy and doing real good. Hmm, big sigh. Will be sleeping alone tonight, i miss sissy. Anyway, will be webcamming with missy ameliatan tmrw! Yay, alright tmrw is sunday. Nights, ciao. Home sweet home.

P/s: Rawr.

Yeah God will lead us, definitely.

& I don't want to kiss the cap-stranger beside me. :/

Pocket full of sunshine.

2011-05-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps, its been quite sometime since i blog here.

So yeah, i've finished my one and only paper for the third semester in my first year of degree. Time really flies, one year is almost gone like that. Many things changed, and life is good having Big daddy with me, going thru lots of ups and downs experiencing Him more and more each day! Hmm, I don't know what the results will turn out to be but i'm surrendering it to God, no matter what the results are, i want it to glorify Him. :)

I wasn't really feeling good yesterday, had headache and stomachache at the same time. And err pretty sad about some stuffs. but i thank God for someone who cheered me up with his nooby face. Heyy i really wanna thankyou for encouraging me and psalms 118:13. Hmm, and yeah i found out that you're scared of tiny insects. That moment was really funny, i kept replaying it in my mind!

Today, i met Tommy(dog). He's really reaaaally cute and hyper active. Teehee! Ohh yeah and i had lots of fun cleaning up my house gonna-be. Guess what? I cleaned only one table, i was so pumped up to do spring cleaning and brought everything but the two who came with me were sooo lazy!!!! (Andy and Cheryl) So, in the end Cheryl called someone to come clean the whole house tmrw, haha!! Hmm, I wanna make our newhouse really awesome and have house warming!! Its gonna be fun! :) Oh yeah, I got the pink glass from mcd today and a blue pillow! Had tonnes of fun today, thanks to Andy and Cheryl and the horse ride!lol.

Something awesome to share, i cleared my stuffs!! So many stuffs to pack, i almost went crazy. HAHAHA. but i did it anyway. woohoo! Euniceteo rawks! opps! :P Anyway, wanna wish those who are having papers tmrw. All the best and God bless youu!

Ciao, movie-ing w tk and the rest!1255, i'm lateeeee!

Just wanna share this video. Don't hesitate to press the play button. haha.

My slipper fits 'sexily' on your feet. :P

I really like that place a lot, G.8

God is working.

2011-05-05T08:07:00.000-07:00

Hello people, it's been quite some time i wrote here. Anyway, i'm back to update some stuffs in life. haha. Hmm, I enjoyed noni's and foo's birthday celebration yesterday. You know what i ate a lot of marshmellows and i was so sweet. HAHAHA. just kidding,lol. Hmm I thank God for everything, and especially how he turned the situation around wonderfully.

Things are different when it is in His control. It's just different and amazing, but sometimes things will not turn out our way but God's way (lol, of course, it's god's way, what am i thinking), Anyway the point is that we've gotta learn to obey then. It's not an easy thing to learn to obey, sometimes God will remove stuffs in your life and put in new things. We don't know, we cant fathom His awesomeness, but the only thing i know is that He will always wants the best for us. =)

I often fallshot of His glory. I feel so unworthy of His love for me, but still He loves me, loves you, everyone. Jesus died for all of us on the cross just because He love us so much. Thankyou Big daddy for everything you've done for me. You're a caring and loving father to me. You are and always will be. You never change. You're AWESOME larh big daddy! =D

I thank God that Aaron is also going for the FES camp, i really hope that i can be renewed in the camp and have lots of fun. Anyway, finals around the corner, i need to study. Alrightey, i shall leave soon. hahhaa. nights! ciao! :D

P/s: Hmm thanks for telling me what was on your mind, i just hope that you will open up and share it with me and don't keep it all in your heart, later oneday burst!! And err it's not healthy, this explains why you always fall sick. :P Anyway, i will keep on praying and hoping, God will lead. Btw, 6.8 its already good enough for me but i want it to grow too. hehe (demanding) :P

quite disappointed, i dont want the 7.8. serious='(

What???? ask me use bottle. HAHAHA, crazzyy boy! :P

God is good, all the time!!

Random.

2011-04-30T23:34:00.000-07:00

hmm,iknowi'mwrongtothinkthatway,itwillbereallyhard,dearbigdaddypleasebringme,usthroughitall.

i believeyou'reincontrolofeverything.ithinkiknowwhatsymi.yeahymi.teehee.trust.=)

Randomly posted this.

He listens to our prayers! :D

2011-04-27T09:57:00.000-07:00

"I don't care what people will say, i'm running after You!"

I thank God for everything in my life, i just want to surrender it all to Him because He sees the bigger picture of everything. He holds everything in His hands. Let God.

I enjoyed talking to you today, got a deeper understanding of you and yeah i'm glad you told me honestly about some stuffs. Hmm, i believe God will use you greatly in your life in the future, continue to hold on to him and shine for Him in the area He wanna use you. I believe that greater things will happen, and i'm waiting for it patiently.

Friendships are like plants, you need to take care of it well if not it will just wither off and die. It is not by chance it will improve but it is grown with love and care. So yeah, i thank God i talked to a number of people today. Hmm, believe that our friendships will be strong and will stick through ups and downs like SUPER GLUE! =D I'm glad God gave me someone to go with for the camp in Cameron highlands, He answered my prayer! He is so so awesome! :D Oh and to a friend, i'm really sorry to ask you to wait and everyone left and went by themselves, i really didn't know. i hope you're not angry with me, i'm really sorry. :('

Being cheerful keeps you healthy Proverbs17:22

Stay cheerful people and drink lots of water, don't fall sick alright! esp you! :P

I'm not a bluffer, i'm sleeping soon =P

talk more larhh, haha.

Thank god for everything, and you. i'm glad you entered my life :D secret!! :P you won't see this.hehe

1John4:7-21 haha.

2011-04-24T06:35:00.000-07:00

God is Love

1John4:8

Whoever does not love does not know God, for God is love.

1John4:10

And God showed his love for us by sending his only Son into the world, so that we might have life through him. This is what love is: it is not that we have loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the means by which our sins are forgiven.

1John4:18a

There is no fear in love; perfect love drives out all fear.

1John4:19

We love because God first loved us. =)

Thankyouforeverything.

trust and believe! :D

Blessed Easter!

2011-04-24T06:02:00.000-07:00

Dear Mr God, thank you for the love you've given to me on the cross. Your love is amazingly beautiful, and perfect. There is none like you Dear Mr God. Only You understand me the best, only You know me from the inside out. When i feel like giving up, you never leave or give up on me. You're the best Dear father in heaven.=) I'm glad that you chose me as your daughter, to be able to know you and i am really proud because i serve a risen Saviour! You're a God who is alive!=)

Anyway, dad just left for ipoh. Hmm. I'll be going back tmrw morning too.

This morning we went to 'kongkong' cemetery at 6AM and we had praise and worship there and we went to clear and clean up the tombstones of our loved ones who are asleep, i believe they will rise again when the day Jesus comes. eternal life=) Ohh yeah, we also went to Kulai for dinner because it was grannie's birthday today! Blessed 91st birthday! May you continue to stay strong and healthy and have lots of joy everyday. Ah maa i love youu! :D

I bought four cute things and i hope you all will like it. Teehee=)

just close your eyes and pray.

miracles do happen. =)

Hmmm. I'm feeling down but i wanna be up. Please help me God?

Psalms 46 God is with us.

2011-04-23T04:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was Good friday and i went to church of course. I enjoyed every moment of it and i told God what was in my heart and on my mind i want to tell Him eventhough He knows it all. This year's Good friday in my hometown church was pretty different, we walked through Jesus's journey the road to Calvary and i like the last part the most. We wrote the things down on a flower petal and nailed it on the cross. I enjoyed my time spent talking to God in the santuary, it was just so so awesome. And i'm glad that Kaes went to church too. =)

I received a snail-mail today!

Hmm, went to the dentist today to check out the problem with my wisdom tooth. It was swollen. =( And you know what, the dentist asked me to make another appointment to extract all the four wisdom tooth out. It would be really really painful then, im scared actually. Gaah. I asked him whether can i don't extract it, only extract the one that is painful. He said no, extract ALL. If not it will be terrible, and would cause migrain and worst still the entire jaw would be locked.

We went to jusco and i bought some stuffs, then we went cycling. Cycled with dad, sissy and coussie. I used the ahma bike, wooh it was really tough when i cycle up the slope. Really not enough strength, haha must train more next time. (Oh yeah, i remembered GG said i got nice leg muscles! lol ;P )

Alrighto, going for dinner now! ciao! ;)

P/s: take care of yourself kay nooby, don't keep falling sick alright? [=

I will bite, when i'm healed.

oneday, grrrrrr. careful haha :P

Note: love is not jealous. hmmm.

What a day.

2011-04-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

I thank God for today, i had fun praying during campus revo. but the pain came after revo during lunch time, this time was really painful till i almost died, seriously. =( I tahan-ed in class, shouting and crying out loud in my heart. Uhh the pain was unbearable then i rushed home and straight slept after drinking milo. Thank God, i was feeling much better when i woke up. =) Ohh yeah and shan thanks for the yummy traditional food, i really enjoyed it. =D

Hmm, we went to celebrate CC's birthday! It was pretty fun, we had roti planta and some random snacks for dinner. We managed to give him a surprise and we saw some stuffs which we shouldn't see, hahahha smeelly!! XD

Hmmmmmmmm. I hope that our names won't be called for presentation tmrw. Alright ciao first, wanna go read up some stuffs. nights! pain please i beg you to go away. ty.

changed? its good. =))

Actually i'm pretty hurt about what you said. Hmmm, but it's okay/still smiling.=)

Rainbows gmh.

2011-04-16T09:34:00.000-07:00

Hmm just got back from CG, we shared about forgiveness and stuffs. It's hard to forgive something but we need to do it. By the power of God's love, we can. We need to learn to let go about what had happened, even if you hold on to the past and be btiter about that, it cant change anything. =) Oohh, i'm missing rainbows. When can i get to see one again? Hmm, its been quite a while since i saw one, i think the very last time was during highschool time. Uhhh, i really miss rainbows. And yeah i did some cards for some friends and also for the ixora guards to thank them and appreciate what they've done. Will be passing it to them and i hope they'll like it! pretty neat huh? Today, dad and mom dropby malacca to visit us and i enjoyed the little we had, talking to them! We went to windmill to grab some lunch and then they went back. Uhmm, Dear Mr God, i think i wanna go for that camp, continue to show me alright? Ohh yeah can't wait to learn my guitar tmrw night, Thanks to jeremy sensei! HAHAHAHA.Thanks for temaning me, and you almost had gastric. Sorry :/. Hmm the place was pretty cool, it was windy and quiet. (except for the mosquitoes and one frenchfries cat) HAHAHA. I believe everything happens for a reason, & no doubt, God will continue to lead us. *chin up* so that i don't look sad.=)

to put God in the center of my life.

The way you look at me.

2011-04-12T19:13:00.000-07:00

I woke up pretty early around nine plus by my automatic alarm clock in my heart. Wanted to sleep back because i wasn't feeling that well but couldn't. I can't sleep till late in the morning, if you know what i meant. Anyway, i had a pretty lame dream. i dreamt about Jui. I found her blog unintentionally, and realised she watched secret garden last year!! HAHAHAHA.

Had tons of fun with some of my coursemates. It's been kinda long having this kind of outing together, we went for movie "The ghosts must be crazy". The movie was really funny and pretty scary too, we were screaming our heads off. Thank God, Kaes was beside me and i hugged her. And you know what she smelled so nice. (HAHAHA, actually i've something for girls. lols :P ) Just joking, teehee=) Hmm anyhow we all enjoyed, and we went for late lunch. And i ate twice lunchhh, fattenning wey.. hehe

Shan and meeeeee! (smileess)

shan, me and kaes!

ami momok and ringo. hahah.

trying to do some retarded face.

God is good all the time and i love him. I am not afraid to declare it,

i love youuuuu Dear Mr God! :D:D:D

Romans 12:12

dont go? teehee=)

2011-04-05T11:44:00.000-07:00

Friends (:

Sometimes people say things and don't do it. They just say.

Hope that tmrw would be one awesome happy day. :P

LETTERS TO GOD.

2011-04-05T11:18:00.000-07:00

Today's cf, movie screening was good. We watched "Letters to God", and i did learn something from it. It was really a nice movie, highly recommended by euniceteo. I've got a journal where i always write to God. I believe that God reads all of em' and He would answer em in His beautiful timing. He's never too late or too fast but He's always in time.

and yeahh sometimes i feel really bad after laughing too much. I don't know why but i don't feel good now, maybe i'm just tired. ciao first, nights!!=)

Ohh yeah, have to stop taking cold stuffs for 1month.

[Remind me please=( ! ]

Hokkein is kinda cool.

to know you better? :/

5:19am

2011-04-05T10:24:00.000-07:00

I exercised! (;

Yesterday i sleptover at Ami's place. We went for badminton from 12am to 2am and it was really awesome. I enjoyed playing with the them but especially the girls cause we did lots of crazy stuffs and all of us were like sweating like mad. Alvin the pro taught me to become more pro in badminton, so i teamed up w him and we beat likhai and scott. Most of the guys very geng!!!!! After badminton we went minum till around 3 den i went to Ami's place and started to play her keyboard. It's kinda addictive and yeah i played till around 5 and then went to sleep. I couldn't sleep and went to bath at 530 and slept at around 7 plus. We missed dimsum. :/

3/4-twelve. I went to a beautiful place w a friend. I do appreciate the time that we could share and talk about stuffs in our life. You asked me where i wanna go next time, i think, Its not about the surrounding/place, but its about you, me and God. =)

I didn't know that the little things i do, brought great impact into your life. I'm glad that you told me so, i didn't kembang but it made me thinking. I really glad that God used me in part of His plan in your life. Glad that i can be a friend whom you can trust. (:

P/s: twisted left ankle but thank God its better now!

Your voice zuperr bassy.

i am gemuk and cute. lol, just joking.

I counted - eleven places.

2011-04-02T09:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night we went for choyleefatt movie and the movie wasn't that good but there were some parts which were quite funny and you know larh the two girls beside shouted and screamed till the aunty infront of ami was so pekcek. =X

Today i stayed at home, whole day know! Home alone, but it was kinda cool, being alone. =)) I did some parts of my assignment but was distracted to watch drama series. HAHAHA. Hmm won't be going back for this mid-term break, gonna stay here and enjoy my time in Malacca. Ohh and yeahh yf will be coming up to malacca this weekend, so gonna spend time with them, can't wait to see gracito and the gang!! =)

Just finished bible study and today's one is about "Love speaks the truth." I think i will approach him to ask for reconcile larh, but i'm so scared to do it. Uncle chik said it won't be easy, but if you care the person you'll do it, so yeah i will try. :) I went for late dinner with sissy and now feeling really the full. We met ed, eun, angel, sally, mau, edwin they all. Hmm, i think i need to shower now. Really stinks, ciao. i go pompom first :P

P/s: God is in control of everything.

I hope you'll find the phrase=)

Mister famous ego guy.

Communication is important.

2011-03-31T08:34:00.001-07:00

Had just returned from cg bible study. Today we talked about depression and stuffs, hmm i didn't feel good because i failed to love once again. Someone irritated me and i wasn't happy and i became really quiet though. I really didn't feel good or great doing that, so i'm really sorry. Sorry kay, there was like some random thought and God said i've forgiven you, shouldn't you do the same too?

Uh, i kena bullet from God.

So yeahh, sorry once again. Hmm today Campus Revo's theme was on healing. Healing can be for many areas in life, not just physically, but emotionally, spiritually and also for broken relationships. We prayed and yeah, it was kinda awesome but Jayzee's gonna go india tomorrow, gonna miss him larh. And hooray, i played the guitar. ;P

Someone random made my day today, he said something awesome to me! Today i did devotion and it was on communication. Communication is important, and its from something called, heart. Matthew 12:34 Out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. Hmm yeah, I know it ain't easy.

P/s: should i go genting? :S

I'm glad you like it. seriouslyy. :)))

Day fourteen: Power of LOVE.

2011-03-30T04:46:00.000-07:00

Something to share!

I learnt this from the devotions i did today. [1Corinthians13:4-7]

1. Be patient: Love is Patient

2. Be kind: Love is Kind

3. Don't be proud: [Love] does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

If you felt truly secure in God's love for you, you would have nothing to envy, you wouldn't need to boast, and you wouldn't have to built your ego by feeding it heaping helpings of pride. The real issue behind each of these choices is our pride.

4. Don't be selfish: [Love] is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

5. Don't give up: [Love] Always protects, always trusts, always hops, always perseveres. (fight it together)

ACTIONS: think of the difference it can make for you to call someone today and say, "No matter what happens, i will stay with you and face all things together."

Today i went to campus to study and do my assignment but in the end i met up w Ami and Cheryl and i didn't really did much of my work. We supported some of the alphas' business project and ended up with lots of food.=) Hmm thanks shan for reminding me that i've gotta plan well and not simply just waste my precious time off. I came back feeling rather exhausted and rest for a while. After that i continued with my assignment and went for dinner at around 12am w ami and ed. Giant wasn't feeling well, so he couldn't go with me. Don't feel bad alright, take care larh giant! next time!=)

P/s: Its good to know that people care for you, thanks taigor =)

God leads.

2011-03-28T23:30:00.000-07:00

A walk to remember.

Hope you'll like it, its just something meaningful to me.

So yeah i shared it with you.=)

I enjoyed BSAD yesterday, it was really awesome. The guys did a great job and we girls enjoyed it alot! i like the ending part where you guys blindfolded us and lit the candles "WE <3 YOU!" Hmm i've got some photos! will upload em' soon. Yesterday Andy and Kaes came, i hope they enjoyed it tooo and kaes made us all the roses with sweets. It was so sweet of her=))

Hols are starting very soon, should i go back?

Hmm, sometimes there's nothing much to talk about.

stomachache :/

God's plan is the best us.

2011-03-26T11:15:00.000-07:00

It's been a long day for me.

I enjoyed the wedding and then bsad practice but something not really good happened btw sissy and i. Hmm, but i still said sorry to her in the end. I really felt that saying sorry wasn't easy for me especially during face to face. Sometimes we people want to keep our face/our maruah/our ego, we just don't want to humble ourself down, just to say sorry. but thank God i've decided to say it and i've done it! We're back to the craziness mode that we always have. Thank God=)

We talked about the stuffs and it's the first time i feel so comfortable talking.

Beautiful places w coke to quench thirst. And we'll strive better for Christ together!!!!!!

[Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.Proverbs 3:5-6]

AMELIA TAN, you make me want to get an ipod. Ahhh!

but it's a want. Can i still? :/

Yess, surrender it to Him,

because He knows it all, best.

Sunflowers(:

2011-03-25T09:13:00.000-07:00

There's only one life.

I wanna live it well according to His plan, not mine.

I want to focus on Him. (=

Yesterday we had Campus Revo and we gave out drinks, sweets and some little notes to around 200 students to bless them. It was really fun with the team and i enjoyed every moment of it. God bless us all with so much love, so we've gotta share it out to the people around us!

Yeah, His unconditional love. =)

I enjoyed the fellowship with my beloved CG members yesterday, we really did lots of stupid stuffs and for me personally, it was pretty cool wearing the helmet thingy in the dimsum shop. HAHAHA. rofl. Anyway, i experienced new stuffs again! Too bad our CG leader was sick and didn't join us, hope you get well real soon! Will be praying for you! (:

Today i went for church practice for tomorrow's wedding!! I am so excited, and i really love attending weddings. Really really do. So yeah we will be singing for them tomorrow in church!! Hmm anyway, i really wanna watch the movie 'Rango' but i don't think i can. Sigh, i've got a long-list of to-do list. Really got lots of things to prepare and yeah BSAD is coming!! can't wait!! :D

P/s: Ahh, no more drinking water at home so yeah, i am going down now to get some water and then proceed to bed. It's pretty late now 1:51am. I am tired so yeah, nights people! Toodles!

There is a God who loves me; who wraps me in His arms. And that is the place where I'm changed and that's where I belong.

Love is patient.

1Corinthians 13:4-8

BGR sharing.

2011-03-22T08:32:00.000-07:00

Was reminded of lots of old stuffs and also learnt new stuffs thru the sharing we had just now during cf meeting. Today brother Fook meng & sister Joo Li, Andrew & Reb shared with us their experiences and how God brought them together and answered so many of our questions. HAHAHA Sally and i wrote so banyak.

After cf, i didn't join them for supper. I am glad that Kaes joined us once again, really really glad. =) Hmm i was walking back and suddenly i didn't realised that i walked till the field. So once again i'm there by the stairs. but this time alone. i sat there in the dark listening to the songs playing on my phone. I talked to God about stuffs and i really thank God that He strike me on what i need to do. Because i really was lost and didn't know what to do next in some stuffs. Thank you Lord! Heh anyway, i hope to talk to you very soon one day. We'll pray about it first k? I believe God leads.=)

Got lots of stuffs to do, so yeah till then!

God never fails! TRUST HIM!

Nights!!

Great day! Praise God!

2011-03-19T09:10:00.000-07:00

I overslept and was late for worship practice.

The practice was at 945am and i woke up at 944pm. =P Hmm, anyway i enjoyed singing and learning a few new songs, johnny was really crazy and funny. He was so hyped up for God, can see his passion for God. It was so very the awesome. =)

We practiced till around 1pm and was late for ROC post mortem. We go through all the good side and also the not so good side, did a pretty cool review of everything and the process. I am really glad that God has brought us thru' everything, providing us with everything!!

Just got back from CG in church, i learnt about patience and kindness. Jesus is the perfect example for all of it and perfect love casts out all fear. Gotta put it into practice and not just knowing it but living it out. Hmm, its hard, but remember thru God all things are possible. isn't it?

You know what, younger brother was so cute. He nudged me in msn.

bro: Hey have you seen tonight's moon?

me: Err nope, why??

bro: go see the supermooon!!

me: supermooon?

bro: Yeahhh, its super big and bright tonight!

(runs out to balcony and check out)

me: Sighs, can't see it from here.

bro: its okay.

(he uploaded a photo of the moon taken by his phone)

P/s: I realised i've stopped listening to one particular song that i like last time for quite some time, and i finally listened to it today. and also realised most of the things changed? Everything.

Oh means hi in noobface language.

HAHAHA :/, smiles.

Real friends.

2011-03-17T09:40:00.000-07:00

I just came back from CG and i really enjoyed it and i learnt stuffs once again, i need to apply what i know from head knowledge to actions. At first i wasn't feeling that good because something happened and i failed to do what i suppose to, love a little bit more. It was kinda weird at first but slowly, everything became good. =) I talked to Mau about some stuffs and i think i know what to do now. but..I am kinda afraid but i believe God will help me out with it! surely definitely!! I believe!!

We shared about 'real friends'. Who's your real friend? What is a real friend?How to make real friends? I like what Jingles shared, real friends are people that we can wake them up at 4am, talk to them when we're in need. It is not we want to trouble them, but we can. =)

James 3:2 spoke most to me, that no one is perfect.

We all stumble in many ways. Anyone who is never at fault in what they say is perfect, able to keep their whole body in check.

Heyyou don't be sad, cheer up!! =)

i'm not busy kayy, rmb! hee.

when the clock strikes midnight.

2011-03-15T20:29:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was kinda packed with classes, and i was really really tired. Didn't plan to join them for supper after cf, but because Kaes went i temaned her. Anyway, I am glad that Kaes came for campus games, i hope she will come again. =) Met Char yesterday to discuss about the stuffs for bsad. Actually we were going for hiking this morning at 725am, but in the end i couldn't get up and most of them who wanted to go got classes. Sorry ffk-ed. =(

Many things still roam around in my mind and i know it isn't good though. I was doing my personal devotions today and i realised this:

"Doesn't life consists more than all these...?"

Wanna start with my assignments and my gotta study real hard for this sem. Everything is in His hands, so i do not need to worry, esp for some things. I need to learn to trust in Him more because Jesus is my HOPE! Anyway, will be lunching with Kel soon.

To a friend, hey you don't worry kay. I am glad that you shared with me, i believe that there's a reason for everything that has happened. You feeling lost, empty, helpless, hopeless? Remember you can come find me anytime, just text me if you need someone to talk to. Don't say that you've lesser friends or what, cause i am still here for you, and our whole gang for you k. And yeah i'll pray for you always! take care. (:

Ecclesiates 3:1

stop thinkinggggggg please..

yesterday night.

2011-03-12T21:50:00.000-08:00

I called you.

We went out walking in the night, the wind was blowing and i put on my sweater and went out. We sat at the stairs beside the field till 2:39am; I thank God for that time together that we can share each others lives, what we are facing, where we are hurting, mainly our problems, etc.

We talked and for the very first time i felt that we were really really close after so long. It was really awesome, while talking i also realized my own problem where i was dwelling upon. I just need to rely on and trust in my Big daddy above. Maybe all this while, i was just wanting to go my own way to try my luck but everything failed and went out of control. You reminded me once again to let it go to Bid daddy because only Him can fill up the empty bottle in my heart, pray and believe that He will make everything beautiful in His time. =)

Reminder: Big daddy: "You will never walk alone."

Oh yea thanks giant for offering to come with me next time. =)

P/s: I don't wanna become emo because of that anymore.

Letting it all go, trusting Him for the best.

I learnt lots of stuffs thru today's sermon too. bestrong.

There is none like you.

2011-03-12T07:32:00.000-08:00

I called them and told them. At first i didn't dare to talk to dad, but at last he called me up saying he heard from mom. I was crying over the phone and it was really bad this time. I was so afraid you know. ='(

I gotta move stronger in the Lord, just focus on Him and nothing else.

Everything, everyone changes but Big daddy is always there for me, Big daddy doesn't change. His word stands still forever ever and His love for me doesn't change. I think its time i need to set things right and my heart on the right track and don't put hope on things that will fail me. I don't know whether im in the right path right now (in every area) but i believe He will guide me thru and all these things will make me stronger in Him.

struggling, breakfree.

HOW GREAT IS MY GOD!

2011-03-11T05:15:00.000-08:00

With a thankful heart.

I think only people who went through em' before can feel what i am feeling right now. I can't blame anyone for all these that happened, but only myself. I am thankful that we met up and prayed together, after that we had dinner together. I was so scared and wanted to just hide at home in my room, but whats the point of hiding? I know i need to talk to God about this and so yea i went.

Many nice friends around me helped me w prayers and talked to me. Thanks jz for encouraging and praying for me and also the rest. I kept tearing non-stop, and i talked to mr lolo for quite a long time. He made me laughed like crazy because of his nonsense. I thank God for em' all. =) Most importantly, it made me closer to God. I find true comfort in You, Abba father.

When things go wrong, remember first to turn to God and seek Him. Be still and know that He is God. I believe that everything happened for a reason and its all in His plan.

Job, 1:21

Naked i come from my mother's womb,

and naked i will depart.

The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;

May the name of the Lord be praised.

Isaiah 41:13

I am the Lord your God;

I strengthen you and say,

"Do not be afraid; i will help you."

P/s: Pray for Japan, its kinda bad =(

Can i trust you? =(

me.

2011-03-10T07:54:00.001-08:00

These few days was kinda like a rollercoaster ride for me, going up and down. I told pastor my decision after praying about it. Thank God for everything, for the good and bad things=) I wanna say thankiuu for those who were with me during those days, awesome people who cared for me during the zuperr down period.

I had fun during CG just now. We went for dominoes and den fruit juice.And this week i did lots of exercise, now whole body-aching, cheryl scolded me. Hahha :

Tuesday- Gym (first time working out in campus w shan, cheryl, kaes, ami, meow)

Wednesday(evening)- Hiking w gg

Thursday(730am)- Hiking w Edmung and gg, dimsum w eunice& edmund.

P/s: Results coming out tomorrow! God bless us :/

11/03: Its someone's birthday!! Blessed birthday dearrrr shan. =)

behind closed doors.

Maybe i'll learn butterfly language? :)

HEARTS.

2011-03-09T08:27:00.000-08:00

I thank Big daddy for His love.

Decision made, PTL!!

continue to lead me Lord in other things.

I believe in You.

you.

2011-03-08T17:36:00.000-08:00

There's always a time where we come to a point that we can choose to dwell on things or not to dwell, choose to be happy or the other way round, choose to cry or to smile, choose to be emo or not to. I always tell people thes but i always fail to do so. And yesterday night was somehow a bad one for me, i chose the wrong thing and i even knew i was going the wrong way. but still. i broke down, literally into pieces. =(

I pressed the emergency button, was dying but no one came, except for you,

I even begged you to comfort me, to heal my brokenness inside,

Thankyou that you did. ilybdvm.

it always turns out this way and i really hate it.

Jesus please take the wheel, i really have no more strength to go on.

choosing to stand back up.

i guess its just not it.

Message unsend.

2011-03-07T17:38:00.000-08:00

I received a text from a unknown number asking me about something. And so i replied to that text and now i am currently in a dilemma, i really don't know what to do and how now. Dear daddy above, please show me what you want me to do in the next few year, esp the next academic year. I will go wherever you want me to go. Big daddy lead me, i know that you're with me and i'm not afraid, please help me in making this prettybigdecision. Thankyou daddy!

Anyway, i can't wait to sharing what we experienced throughout the mission trip in Bintulu in cf tonight. I made a video, so yeahhh hope it is good and all cfers will be encouraged and burn with more passion for God. [=

And yeah, i read your blog. I hope that you're doing really good back there! Remember stay strong in Christ, your favourite verse Romans8:28. Take care alright! God bless youuu bestfriend. Hmm yeah i kinda miss taylor swift's songs these days. I kinda like this song back to december by taylor swift=)

should i press the send button? :/

Waiting patiently.

2011-03-06T08:13:00.000-08:00

I had wonderful holidays, spent time with my family, relatives and some friends. I enjoyed myself a lot and of course not forgetting the mission trip that i've gone through. It was amazingly awesome!=) Eric came to my church, glad that he enjoyed the service. It was pretty fun and i had a long ride back to Malacca, around 4hours. I suddenly had the urge to write a story that was in my mind. So i quickly jot it down on a torn paper i found in my bag during the journey, haha. Went to hospital and clinic just now w py, thank God she's alright now. And i'm so thankful that kel and jz could go w us, and had a wonderful 'fellowship' in the car. And something awesome today: I cleared my zuper messy room!!

Uhmm i thank God for this 2 weeks breakaway, and tmrw will be the starting of a new sem, i seriously gotta buck up!! Life is full of challenges & uncertainties. There are many hurdles & difficulties that lie in front of us, but remember we have an awesome God! and He is in control of everything. Euniceteosuyin go, run the race well for Big daddy!!=))I think i should sleep now, having stomach pain and headache. uhh nights!

P/s: RAWR.

I think i got it?!! hahah.

Someone said i got flabby arms :/

On the side of me=)

2011-03-01T21:16:00.000-08:00

I thank God for today, i went for some bible study with pastor in the morning. I learnt a lot and some were reminders to me, and i realized actually have forgotten a lot. I got lots of questions and doubts to ask him. He was really nice, he answered them one by one. I thank God for him too!

I went for check-up at one medical specialist in town, (actually was forced by mum) She was worried about me because i had chest discomfort these few days. =X Anyway, thank God everything was fine, i meant alright? and yeaa something else i learnt today is to appreciate everyday and live it to the fullest. I believe that God is in control of my whole entire life, everything is already in his plan. I just need to believe and obey Him. Hmm, i got a video from a very good friend of mine, really awesome friend of mine, was kinda shocked to received it but thanks for all the effort doing it and err letting me know? Err yeaa I do still like that song.

You? I don't know. I shall not think about that for this moment. Everything will be well

Let Your will be done, if i go my own way, things might get worst.=)

Was thinking alot about the last text message you sent me.

illusionnnnnsss, gaah maybe it isn't true?

Dear bigdaddy, lead me arite? (=

Secret garden

2011-03-01T08:19:00.000-08:00

God take the wheel of my life.

i'll try my best 530am (=

Bintulu Mission 2011

2011-02-27T07:46:00.000-08:00

Byebye Bintulu!

It was a blessed and awesome mission trip for all of us, because God is AWESOME! Ummph, i really thank God for every single thing that happened over there, i really did experienced Him throughout the whole mission trip. He was there with us throughout the whole thing and saw how God make things beautiful in His perfect timing. This mission trip really impacted my life and it left a mark there, a good one though! Praise God, To God Be The Glory.

I met many awesome people who have passionate hearts burning for God there in Bintulu, they were superb people. Wonderful people who loves God very much, i see their love for the people there. First Pastor Rose, she is a wonderful cook and teacher, i learnt many things from her. There were two things which Pastor Rose shared, first one is "what will Jesus do? & when Jesus asked Simon do you love me for 3 times" Second person is Jeffrey, youth worker. He's a friendly guy who is on fire for God! He shared with me some of his life testimonies and how God changed his life. Hmm he is really fun to be with, ahah! Third is brother Leong/long/panjang, He's a changed man by God, wonderfully used by God. And also brother Ricky, Walter and many others!!

Alright, i shall show some of the pictures and explain what we did there!

Day One

We reached the place- Blessed 2 bless. We actually thought we will be staying with some other children over there but unexpectedly the whole house was for us! After that we gathered in the living room and started talking and got to know Jeffrey, the youth worker who will be joining us for the whole trip. Pastor was in the kitchen preparing lunch for us, we wanted to help but kena halau cause pastor said she don't wanna let us know her secret recipe. HAHAHA, she's a very cute pastor! After that pastor came and join us and we started sharing who we are, from where, how we got to know Christ, what course are we taking, what we plan to do after graduating and etc. We started to share and got to know each other better. After that we went to visit the slump area which is known as the village of Mazako and we also went around inviting villagers for the night event. There were 380 families living there, its something like rumah setinggan and at night they don't have electricity, but there's a generator only at the Tuai rumah's place. At night we conducted a youth fellowship at the tuai rumah's place. Amazingly, lot's of people came!! Praise God!=)

Brother Leong provided this house for us.

Sharing #1

Sharing #2

First meal we had there, girls helped with the cooking and guys helped w the eating.lol.

The blue sky, but pastor said Bintulu is polluted, alot of asthma patient there.

Village Mazako #1

Village Mazako #2

Village Mazako #3

Village Mazako #4 (imagine there are 380familes living in the village)

Village Mazako #5 (This is how they make Belacan)

Village Mazako #6 (Inside Tuai Rumah's house)

Village Mazako #7 (The kids there!)

Jjourney back from Mazako, the guys sat behind the truck!

Night, first fellowship with Mazako villagers.

The Tuai rumah introducing us.

Games session.

The kids there were happy!!

Some youths there.

Kelvin and Mau sharing their testimonies.

The youths performed some songs for us.

Nego's voice is awesome!!!!

Day Two

We woke up at 530 for devotions at the balcony. And Sally fell sick, having high fever. :/ We prayed for her and God is awesome, slowly later part of the day, she was better! Hmm, we went for EE which is Evangelism Event at some shopping complex, City Point Mall in Bintulu. Most of us were first time doing it, going up to total strangers and talk to them and share the gospel to them. We were kinda afraid at first, but God gave us the strength and courage and we tried and did our best for God. We went in pairs w our own buddy. God was training us up for greater things, Kel and i talked to four person and also prayed to bless them. After that we went for lunch with Pastor Rose and tried the Teh C Special there, which was our 3layer tea here. Next, we packed our stuffs and prepare to go to the long house, 'Rumah Bana', we stayed there for a night. On our journey there, the van went to the opposite lane and there was a cliff just beside the road, the youth worker lost control of the van and Pastor knew that it was a spiritual attack and quickly prayed for protection. It was something really weird. After that we reached Rumah Bana, it wasn't like the olden days long house but it was really modern! We had a great time of fellowship with them and was really encouraged and blessed to see them so hyped up, burning for God! We learnt alot from the people there, seeing them having the heart of worship. Singing praises to God and doing everything from their hearts, it was really a great experience. Personally, i learnt about the heart of worship, even when the song went out of tune, they continue singing w/o bothering about the music. Brother Daud led the youths well, we'll continue to pray for a breakthrough for the guys in Rumah Bana!! PRAISE GOD! =)

walking to city point mall

outside the mall.

Aaron and Christy went off evangelizing!

Off to Rumah Bana!, 45 minutes drive.

some rumah setinggan along the way.

traditional long house.

paddy fields beside the church.

The church was donated by Korean missionaries.

Nicely tiled by.

Discussing for the night event. (Orange shirt-brother Daud)

Eunice trying out the drums, pro wey..

The cute kiddoes!=)

visiting the long house!

its indeed very very long, double storey somemore!

jump shot!

The wanita and lelaki's song presentation.

kiddiessss!

Upm students and University masyarakat people singing!! lol

the youth's skit

cleaning up the hall to sleep, sweeping away all the zuperr big bugs. They go wherever there is light and bang their head until they die, i learnt something tooo from mau's illustration!

Josh was brushing teeth then suddenly nose bleed. ahahah! =X

Guess what the girls were doing? practicing w towels to hit people.lol.

This is epic giler, got more but its private & confidential! (black with pick polka dots<3)

Day three

We had breakfast with the youths at Rumah Bana and headed back to Bintulu for womens ministry in the afternoon in village Mazako. We taught the kakak there how to wash their hands in 7 steps and also gave them some hygiene and cleanliness tips. Ohh yeah and the fun part was we taught them how to paint their nails and while we were painting we chat with them, getting to know them better. They were happy people even when they live in a not-so-good situation that they do not have enough, but they were contented and happy. Pray that God continue to use Pastor Rose, brother jeff and others to blessed the villagers and God's name will be lifted high up in that Village! It was a nice experience talking to all the kakaks there. Yeah at the same time, the guys went to evangelise in the village, they went to four houses and prayed for the people there. They were happy to receive the tshirts, bags and caps, and some weird things happened over there too. (The hornbills incident) At night, we went to join the Kemena cellgroup, mostly the people there were factory workers from indonesians. I believed God placed everyone of us in this Bintulu group for a purpose, Christy and Joshua were indonesians, so they led the service in Indon language. The people there work in the Timber factory and there is a compound where all the workers stay, eat, play there. Every activity were carried out in that place and they hardly go out from that place. There were only 30 odd of em' were Christians, and they have fellowship every Thursday night. They were kinda passive people that need lots of encouragements for them to go out and share God's love. There were lots of changes made to what we had planned but praise God, it went according to His plan and many of them opened up themselves and shared with us their personal testimonies how they get to know God. PRAISE GOD! =)

painting nails #1

painting nails #2

painting nails #3

painting nails#4 (pastor rose also helped to paint)

painting nails #5 pretty.

Day four

Something like the lastday for us. As usual we had our devotions but at 620 cause we woke up late and pastor was already here. We prayed and shared the word of God, pastor shared stuffs with us and we had evaluation in the morning. Uhmm i couldn't really concentrate in the morning during prayer and i shared about the Armour of God in Ephesians. During evaluation, I see god working through us in wonderful ways. This was the last day of mission and tmrw we'll be flying back to malacca and we really hope there will be a bigWOW for us before we head back. We had children's party in the afternoon and we had games, worship, david and goliath skit. The kids enjoyed it and when we were about to leave, the kids asked us whether are we coming back again. It was kinda sad =( The children's party was really awesome and for me i personally enjoyed playing with the kids, some kakaks and the youths. After the children's party we went to the beach, Jeff suggested that we go there for a while to have fun. It was really pretty! Next thing at night, there was this christian fellowship with SMK BINTULU students in their school. The most AWESOME thing happened during that fellowship that friday night. At first, everything kinda went out of our plan and control, and sally and i were somehow dissapointed because it was kinda messed up. But God is GREAT & GOOD! After teaching them the wordless book, pastor stepped up and helped us explained it in a more detailed manner and Jeff suddenly asked us to do a free worship and pray and bless the students there. We went onto the stage and started worshiping God, i stretched out my hand and pray for the students, and suddenly a girl screamed and fell on the floor. Jeff came over and asked us to go down and hug them and pray for them. I quickly went down and hug and prayed for that girl and she was crying and crying non stop. Lots of other students fell, crying and screaming, we went to hug and pray for most of the students, some even fainted. I could feel God's presence in the entire hall and it was magnificient! SERIOUSLY. And it was awesome, the students were refreshed by the holy spirit. This was the first time experiencing this for most of us but it was really a nice one. There was also one teacher who came out and asked the students to go back to their hostel and we started talking to the teacher. We prayed for her the first time and she started coughing and vomited some white stuffs out, after that we talked to her again. Sally and i sensed that that teacher was kinda weird that time so we prayed silently beside while the rest were listening to her life story and encouraging her. She was a very depressed and negative person, so after that we were almost leaving the place. Jeff, the youth worker asked us all to pray for her one last time and we'll leave.So, we surrounded her, she was sitting down and we started to pray. Jeff asked Mau to pray the closing prayer so he didn't start to pray at first, all of us were praying except for mau. Then he felt the urge to go down and hold the teacher's hands. We started praying out loud, that she'll be breakfree from her past and sadness, and etc. Suddenly, she started to fling both her hands, it was like kena electric shock. All of us were shocked to see that but continue praying out loud in the mighty name of Jesus! The second time, she flung her both hands again but this time with more power. We knew that there's something in her, maybe spirit, so we continue to cast the spirit out in Jesus name. All of us were shouting and praying and the Jeff and Eunice were speaking in tongues, all of us were rebuking the evil spirit to leave her body in Jesus name! Then, the teacher suddenly pushed us up with a lot of strength, mau was holding both her hands. but we continue praying and praying andpraying w/o stop until the teacher lie on the table and she started to cough and vomited out the some white stuffs like previously. Mau ended the prayer and all of us shouted zuperrrr loud AMEN! and it echoed the whole entire hall. The teacher said sorry, i didn't know where it strength came from but she said she saw light and a white figure. Then mau explained to her that it was Jesus standing there, and He loves her very much. The teacher thank us many times and after that we left. On the way back, we played christian songs and sang it all the way back. Pastor came in the middle of the night and we shared everything to her, she prayed for us and our love ones. Then she told us that the evil one cannot touch us, because we have Jesus in us and the evil one can only oppress us but not possess us. God will cover us with the armour of God like what i shared in the morning. God also gave us as children of God the authority to go out casting out demons in Jesus name. I learnt a lot of things from Pastor Rose and she is really awesome, she shared my life testimonies with us and also lots of jokes too. After that she told us that the house we were staying actually was haunted, for 2 years nobody stayed here. but before we came in to stay, they prayed and cleansed the whole house in Jesus name. Nothing happened, and brother leong said that the house was turned from haunted ghost house to holy ghost house. AMEN! Praise God! =) Fyi, Pastor Rose left earlier because she had to send a student who was lost back home.

practicing the David and Goliath skit

Children's party #1

Children's party #2

Children's party #3 (Goliath & gang)

Children's party #4

Children's party #5 (david threw the stone towards goliath)

Children's party #6 (Goliath drop dead)

The kids presenting some songs!!=)

Aku Tentera kecil, Yesus panglimaku! DORR!

very very comel this adik=)))

freezee!

freezee

Mau kacau-ing them! HAHAHA.

Sally kena squeeze by all of them. hahahah.

Singing in the van!!=)

eunice smiling hard=)

here we come, beach!

Bintulu beach #1

Bintulu beach #2

Bintulu beach #3

Bintulu beach #4

Bintulu beach #5

Bintulu beach #6

Bintulu beach #7 (christy, jeff)

Bintulu beach #8 (jeff posing, hahaha)

Bintulu beach #9 ( wind really strong there, me and jeff)

Bintulu beach #10 (girls and jeff)

Bintulu beach #11 (josh emo)

Bintulu beach #12 (Aaron smiling! as usual)

Bintulu beach #13

Bintulu beach #14

Bintulu beach #15 (christy always making us laugh=)

Kel, my buddy and also our bintulu leader! Kamu BATU! =]

Buddies!

Sally dan saya!

eunicesss

eunice1, sally, eunice2

sis eunice our alarm clock, thanks for waking us up! :D

saya.=P

Christy dan saya :D

going back..

kel and ahrun!

SOME RANDOM PHOTOS TO SHOW!!!

sarawak laksa! we were so blessed w lotsa food!

Mau serving!

eating..

Teh C special

Jeff and i ( look like koreans? ahhah)

Byebye bintulu!!!!! =(

Josh and sally! buddies!

Day 1 at airport, miri and bintulu girls.

Day 5, Miri and Bintulu united.

In short, God is love and we gotta show our love to the people around us.

I hope what i got to learnt there, i will apply it in my life and continue serving Him with more more FIRE!!! God brought us through that mission trip, guiding us and helping us to take a step closer to Him, Hallelujah! We went there to bless the people there, and we too got blessed even moreee!!!! PRAISE HIM! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!=)

I am starting to miss Bintulu and Pastor Rose, Brother Jeffrey, Brother Ricky, Brother Leong, Brother Walter, villagers in Mazako and the food,etc. :/

Wish you were.

2011-02-19T22:26:00.000-08:00

It's all in drafts.

I guess i'm slowly getting back to track. I've been dwelling on some stuffs these few days? few weeks? My mind was filled with stuffs and i really thought it was going to burst anytime and i might possibly die at that moment, i fell so many times, seriously. but I am really thankful that i have a big daddy above who will not leave me, even when the whole world leaves me. He is so faithful and loving to me and he did not let me go; He held on to me through it all. Anyway, i'm still struggling, but i know He has everything under his control! trust (=

Went to church today, and i realised that what love is and i want to know more about it. I'm going to join 40 days of LOVE campaign this coming march, kinda excited! What is love? God is love! Ohh yeah another thing, mission trip is this tuesday and i haven't pack my stuffs yet. This is my first mission trip and i really hope it will be an awesome one, to really experience God and share my life with the people there! I'm really reaaaaaaally reaaaaaaaaaalllllllly excited! BINTULU here i come!, wherever you want me to be, send me Lord. (=

Thanks to a friend, thanks a million for always being so encouraging even after so many things happened. Even when you're also in dumps, you still try to cheer and pull me up. Don't worry i shall help you up too alright? When i was breaking apart, you helped me up. Thanks kawan! To buddy, thanks for the book. I shall try finish it this hols! (:

God please take the wheel.
God take the lead of my life.
I need to focus more
on you and not the problem.

P/s: mummymau said if he's the right one, he'll wait.

Fireproof:

doesn't mean that fire will not come but when fire comes, how can you withstand it?

am drawing (=

I surrender it all to you big daddy.

Going dinner, shall talk den!!!

ASTAKA.

2011-02-17T05:12:00.001-08:00

Dearyou [=

Being there for each other.

2011-02-15T18:12:00.000-08:00

Went for campus revo and Jz told us about accountability partner, and that's important in our christian walk with God. Someone whom you can share your life with and encourage one another to grow stronger in Christ. Someone who will always be there for you, who will cry together when you're down, who will laugh/rejoice together when you are joyful and happy. Most important the ultimate goal for it is to bring glory to God and to grow closer to Him. So together you'll grow to become strong children of God. I'm praying for one. (:

Thankyou for telling me about that.

I was seriously in the dark, and wasn't sure about that. Sorry i didn't know what to react yesterday, was kinda having mixed feelings. Uhmm yea, you've been one awesome friend of mine especially during the times when i am really down and i hope it wouldn't affect our friendship. & I do cherish this friendship a lot. Actually to be honest with you, i don't know what to do, let's pray and seek the Lord for the best answer alright? (=

To another kawan who nowadays text me a lot, i miss you a lot too! If you're lonely just nudge me or text me alright? I'll there for you!! I promise! (:

Read this verse - Lamentations 3:22-26

Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,

for his compassions never fail.

They are new every morning;

great is your faithfulness.

I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;

therefore I will wait for him.”

The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,

to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly

for the salvation of the LORD.

P/s: If we look back, we miss what's ahead.

P/p/s: Hold His hand, and He will never let you go, trust Him.

being honest (Y)

I won't change, i'll stay the same (=

Romeo & Juliet

2011-02-14T07:24:00.000-08:00

I had fun with my crazy bunch of classmates today.

We went house hopping and i ate a lot (as usual) and we laughed a lot, we snapped a lot, we played crazy truth or dare games, ran here and there, we got to know each other better too! It was really awesome to have valentines with all the single people. & you know what? i got 2votes saying that next year i am not going to single/will be attach the earliest, ey very simply larh you people?!??!?! Uhmm I ate a lot and my stomach is going to burst, i seriously need to start doing some exercise before i turn into a sumo.

People: Peiying, Shan, Cheryl, Kuansong, Teoh, Carfryn, Michelle and myself!

Thank you for making my day so fun! (*chiapeng and jeremy didnt make it)

Ohh yeah, thanks to kuansong's parents for the wonderful dinner! And wanna thank shan for missing me so much, i'm really glad to have you as my bestcrazygila friend! hugs! Actually I did felt something wrong with myself at the end of the day, sorry if you guys notice anything wrong with me, alright i am dead beat, i think i should head to bed now. Nights! (=

You will never walk alone;

Lonely but not alone.

An enormous loneliness emerges, but you are not frightened.

You feel vulnerable but safe at the same time. Jesus is where you are,

and you can trust that He will show you the way.

He loves you just the way you are. [=

P/s: A verse for you people on Valentine's day 2011!

We love because you first loved us. 1John 4:19

Reminder : get new guitar pick! =P

Guitar tuned.

dah gemuk!!!!!!!!!!! :/

Wait upon the Lord.

2011-02-13T06:07:00.000-08:00

From life's first cry to final breath,

Jesus commands my destiny.

Today is another wonderful day that i am grateful for.

I enjoyed the whole day and i learnt something from the sermon today, and it struck me once again. It's time to live out what i believe in, and make a stand in life. I suddenly realized that i have only one life, and am i using it right? or am i just wasting it??? I don't want to waste it mien!! Uhmm I wanna try hard to do my best for big daddy above and serriously hope that the passion for Him wouldn't be just a one minute thing and burns off. RAWR, i am strong in Christ! (=

Ohh yea, i am really glad that Eric came to church today, again. :)

& missy i'm glad you were willing to share and i believed that you'll be alright very soon, i know its hard but do try your best. I'll be here prayin for you and ears and shoulders' shop always 24hours open for you to come visit. When you put your focus right before God, everything will be alright. Let's us grow together in Christ alright? Ilyvvm, and i shall tell wall only kay if i am stress. Hee, zipped & safe!

Blessed Valentine's to all,

I am glad that i am spending it with You! First love. (=

Ohh yeah i shall post something later, i wanna sleep first. Nights! 3:16am

It's good to change for the better for God!

I'll keep praying for you, noobface honest! (Y)

Photos.

2011-02-12T09:57:00.000-08:00

Thank God contract is over, i didn't do my best but still... :/

I am zuperr tired, nights! (:

the awesome blue sky.

the pretty sunset.

smile people. (=

shan and i

kokweng and shan!

boringggg.

zuperrr messy desk, i'm gonna clean and clear! :P

Geegee and gracieeeee!

mama asked me put this weird black stuffs on? lol.

it's dirtyyy.

imy, I remember it was around 3am that day.

wonderful lunch w the neo sistas today!! (=

watched this super funny movie with them.

Had a great talk with you,

stay strong in the Lord! (=

thenevercametruestory.

2011-02-10T21:48:00.000-08:00

Thank God for guiding me thru ma second paper!

Tomorrow another one, i am zuperr tired and m heading to bed soon.

Dear God thank you for never leaving me, esp through the worst times. ((=

Sometimes i really wonder whether are friends really true to me. ='(

Two are better than one,

because they have a good return for their work:
If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!"

Ecclesiates 4:9-10 NIV

ciao; =P

Heymissy thanks for listening to me,

i know you wont' be reading this but i''ll still write it here! :D

It was the scariest dream ever, sweat all over :/

The real you?

2011-02-07T04:46:00.000-08:00

It's been quite some time since i came here. Was really busying visiting during cny and also studying for finals! Gaah what on earth, studying during CNY. Its the worst thing ever, seriously. Dad keeps on scolding me whenever he sees he playing, enjoying and having fun. =(

For me Chinese New Year is:-

1-a time to have family reunion

2-symbolizes a new beginning and hope

3-its also a time of rejoicing

But this cny wasn't a good one for me, many things happened in the family. And its really sad to see quarrels at home and everybody down. =( I cried many times these few days and was zuperr down but i thank God for bringing me through everything. Seriously without God, i would never make it!! And i thank God for a friend who really believed me in and encouraged me thru those badtimes with God's word. Thankyeww, i really do appreciate everything and even the hankie! it's pink!! HAHAHHAHA.

Ezekiel 17:24

1stday of cny:

church

visiting relatives (dad's side)

eat

study

sleep

2ndday of cny:

study

went to batupahat

dinner w relatives

study

sleep

(oh yeah, we lit the 'kong ming teng' some sort of lantern-you know those lanterns in the movie Rapunzel? yeah, those, and i wrote my wishes on it and it flew up up and away. It was kinda fun, awesome.pretty.)

I thank God for the past years that He has brought me through, and i believe there will be more to come in the coming years to experience God gao gao. Hmm, finished legal methods paper today. Thank god it was alright and now the two toughest subject coming up! I am really really scared though, but i believe god will bring me through. I promise that next sem, that i will change for the better. Buck up euniceteo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had a wonderful lunch with my awesome bunch of friends, we laughed till our stomach almost burst and caused the whole windmill to become zuperr noisy. And i am grateful for you guys bringing so much joy into my simple & plain life. (=

P/s: Hecamebackandsaidhi.

Colossians 3:23

trying my best to be a better version of me for you Lord!

Appreciate the good in everything, and you'll smile.

Ohh yeah, i'll upload the pics soon! (=

You orang baik. (=

2011-02-01T21:13:00.000-08:00

Yesterday

EIGHT longhours of car ride with dad and finally we reached JB. Ohh we had two stops one at Shah Alam and another one at Ixora, Malacca. Hee i went back to collect some stuffs i forgot to bring back. :/ The journey was really long, and i sat till my butt went numb. Goodness! I couldn't really sleep in the car so I did a lot of random stuffs in the car, eg read books, watch drama, sang, tried to sleep, talked to dad, oh yeah and of course starring at the clouds. It was pretty, i tell you! SERIOUS! (=

And yeaa thank God for a wonderful friend who told me a really funny and cute story about a weird lady and a cute waiter! HAHAHAHA, it was really funny and i laughed non-stop till dad turned and looked at me. I'll always remember the story which made me laughed whole day, even now! I'm still smiling when i think of it. LOL! You made my day! (=

After sooooo long, i met my family members, was like missing them a lot! Err after that we went Jusco and i talked to sissy so much until mom scolded us. Because we were walking like very slow behind. HAHAHA. Got back and studied till 4am, thankyouu someone for temaning me! (= And it was really scary studying alone downstairs! creepy :/

P/s: Dad told me something zuperr random. He said find boyfriend, fat or thin it doesn't matter, you just have to see his heart.LOL anyway me likey! =P

Today

I gotta study now! Later reunion dinnerr! Cheers! [=

ciao!

I wanna be the best version of myself for GOD!

iam falling in love with clouds.

I owe you milo! (=

Putting God as the center of ma life!!!!!! (=

2011-01-31T06:41:00.001-08:00

I sent you a super long email,

hope it will not freak you out!

Thank youuuuuu [=

2 Samuel 22:29

Be the change.

2011-01-29T23:30:00.000-08:00

Romans 12:2

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - His good, pleasing and perfect will.

I slept at 6 yesterday and i am feeling zuperr tired now. Dad woke me up at around 945 to go church but i didn't hear him calling me, so i continued sleeping. Daddy didn't come wake me again and i automatically switched off my alarm w/o knowing. Then i dreamt about this girl, AMELIA TAN and it turned out to be a scary one, but thank God i woke up because of this dream at 1030! I jumped out of bed and saw that it was already 1030 and knowing that service starts at 1030. I quickly rushed out and told dad i still wanna go to church and i dunwana miss church. Dad said alright get ready quickly and we shall go. (=

Thank God i went to church and i was reminded of something. God reminded me to renew my mind and come before Him, everything that is not right i shall now put a fullstop to it. I thank God for making me realised that I need to conform to God's standard and not the standard of this world. And when my mind and heart is right before God, i will be able to hear God's heartbeat and know His will in my life.

When we hope in the Lord, Romans 5:5 said "And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy spirit, whom He has given us. God will never disappoint us and He will grant us the desires of our hearts. Psalms 37:4. There are times when i tend to go my own way, and i choose not to listen to you big daddy. Things in the world blurred my vision towards you and i choose to walk away from you, and I am very sorry. =( Anyway, i thank God for the reminder and God challenged me once again to stand up, make a change and i believe God will guide me through, bringing me back stronger in the Lord. (=

Heyyou, thanks for sharing it, i hope you'll continue to grow spiritually strong in the Lord! Human make mistakes, me too as well, so no need apologise k? & You'll always be in my prayer list, no doubt! (=

P/s: AMELIA TAN you sangat LAWAK! forgive & love k? (=

I believe you can do it!

Philippians 4:13 [=

Unpredictable

2011-01-28T18:43:00.000-08:00

COUNTDOWN : 8 more days to finals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am actually quite afraid this time, i still got a lot more to go. Anyway, i will try my best and just surrender everything to Big daddy! All the best to all who'll be having their finals toooo! Yeahh, i'll be going to Canning Garden Methodist Church with dad for the night service tonight.

Ohh how can i forget??

Blessed 20th birthday Missy Partner!!

Sorry for the essay text and wanna say that you've been an awesome partner, and i hope to get to you know better! May you grow stronger in the Lord, smile more and stay cheerful & crazy always!! Oh yeah grow fatter and taller (you're too tiny), haha but i like the way you are now! Err, may this be another wonderful year for you!! God bless you partner, me hearts you!! XOXO. (=

Jeremy Thien- the pro noob, blessed birthday too! Bet you had lots of fun yesterday and continue to shine for the Lord yeahh! You've been a good brother in christ and ex pres too, (Y)(Y) God bless you abundantly in every area of your life yea! smile always kay! (=

I shall learn to expect less & appreciate more.

Micah 7:7

But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord,

I wait for God my Saviour;

my God will hear me.

Thank you big daddy for this wonderful promise that you've given to us and i'll hold on to it! For men might fail us but God never will. I am absolutely sure about that!! (=

Ulcer, ouchhh, :/

blupp blupp.